Breaking Dawn..is almost here.
Yep. August second, I will be driving myself crazy because I will not have that book. I had pre-ordered my copy back in February (that’s right. FEBRUARY.) but this week, I realized, hey, I won’t get this book until maybe the eleventh or so. I can’t wait that long. And since we’ll be going school clothes shopping (gah. summer is going to end soon-ish) on the seventh, my lovely mom made a call to the barnes and noble in Great Falls and reserved a copy for me. So, no, I won’t have it August second, but I will have it soon after that. My mom claims that while I’m sleeping she’ll read it. I told her the one flaw in that plan. I have my doubts that once I get my hands on Breaking Dawn that I won’t be sleeping or doing much else besides reading it.
A few weeks ago, Stephenie started putting up a quote a day from Breaking Dawn. This was to supposedly ’satisfy’ us. Yeah right. It just made us all crazy as we tried to figure it out. But, at least we got something. =) If you’re interested in reading the quotes, you can check them all out here.
Peace
Sam
Fred+CNN
This is a incredibly short post, just to say that Fred (the crazy, yet funny, pretend six-year old on youtube.) was on CNN. I’d say he’s getting quite popular. Apparently more people have subscribed to his youtube channel than Miley Cyrus’s or the Jonas brothers. This kid must feel very loved! xD Since he talks about this one text-messenger in some of his videos, he’s now doing commercials for that company. Oh yeah. Expect to hear more about this kid in the future.
The Remix
After that night,
it feels like my world
has been flipped.
Like it’s been changed.
It’s mixed up,
and different at every turn.
It’s a new tune,
and I don’t know the words.
I need someone to
help me find my way back.
1:20 AM
As another day ends,
I find myself
wondering again.
Will this feeling
ever end?
Will I not have
these haunting thoughts?
Will things go
back to how it was?
A single tear,
and your face appears.
Because I can’t
get that picture
out of my mind.
You’ve been there
all this time.
You’ve been
stuck in my mind.
You’ve been in
every conversation.
A single tear,
and your face appears.
A sister and a friend,
but your life here
had to end.
I have to wonder,
will I heal?
I have to wonder,
how can it be real?
I have to wonder;
I have to wonder.
A single tear,
and your face appears.
New Eyes
Earlier tonight, I was really upset. I just felt really horrible. Usually I would just wait it out, maybe listen to some loud-scream-ish music. Tonight (or rather, this morning) I did something different, for a reason I can’t say. I picked up my bible, and flipped to the index in the back.
I’m ashamed to say that I don’t read my bible that often. In fact, I rarely even glance at it unless I’m in church. This is not a fact I’m proud of. Anyway, this morning, I picked up my bible and looked in the back. It’s got a special index that has suggestions for verses you might want to read if you’re feeling a certain way (angry, disappointed, jealous, etc.). So I looked at some of the verses that they suggested if you were in need of comfort. So, I decided to share some of the verses I found most comforting.
Isaiah 42:16 I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.
Psalms 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.
John 8:12 When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”
John 14:27 Peace. I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
After I got done reading, I put my bible on my side-table (so I would remember to pick it up again) I turned off my light and climbed in to bed. I grabbed my Zune and turned to the song Broken by Lifehouse, and started to get settled in for bed. For another reason I can’t really explain, I got out of bed again. A conversation I had with my mom a while ago came to my mind. She had told me that someone told her it’s an incredible experience if every now and then when you pray, you lay flat out on the floor. So, and I don’t think I ever really made a decision to do this tonight (or morning…) I did. I laid myself flat out in the middle of my bedroom floor, with the lights still off, and just prayed.
Again, I’m ashamed to say that I don’t really pray as much as I should either. I turn to God last minute, when He should be the first person I go to for guidance. As much as I love it, music will not solve all my problems. So, I sometimes get a little uncomfortable when I pray. I worry that I’m not doing it the right way, or that it’s not going to do any good. But tonight, I just talked to God. I just told him the way I was feeling, and asked for his guidance and his comfort. When I stood back up, I felt different. I really did.
And I may just be a teenager, but even now, I still have that incredible feeling. When I was praying, I heard this really loud noise all of a sudden. It was raining. Hard. If you know me, you probably know that I love the rain a lot. There’s something about it that makes me feel good. It’s like it’s just washing away all the bad stuff from the day. I couldn’t help myself, I got my sister and we went outside on our steps. I stuck my arm out and let the rain fall down on my arm. It was cold, sure, but it’s still beautiful. I stood out there and felt the rain kiss my arm and inhaled that fresh-summer-rain smell. It was honestly like I was seeing our front yard through new eyes. I felt refreshed. I feel comforted. I feel like everything will really be okay, and that we can get through this. We just have to have faith.
Wave
I have a guitar
that I never do play.
For the melody
reminds me
of the sea.
The tide that
carried you away
to a place
I do not yet know.
Your voice
telling the tale
of your accomplishments.
I do not play,
for the melody
only reminds me of you.
My Thoughts
EMPTY SOUL
Empty souls
walk the path of glass.
Bleeding and broken,
hopeless and lost.
Always stumbling,
never walking tall.
Empty souls
looking for a light.
Afraid and worried,
sorrowful and dying.
Looking in the wrong places,
never satisfied.
Empty souls
looking for a hand.
Homeless and searching,
never finding.
Weaker still,
not yet satisfied.
Empty souls
needing a father.
Needing their heaven.
Empty souls
will find the light.
If only they
had a guide.
IT’S NOT A WEAKNESS, IT’S A STRENGTH.
Shed a tear,
tell me it’s real,
show me you feel.
Shed a tear
and show your strength.
Tell me how you feel.
Shed a tear,
and know I’ll be here.
Shed a tear
and don’t be afraid.
We’ll get through it together.
Shed a tear,
tell me it’s real,
show me you feel.
Four Months
Four Months
Four months ago,
life changed,
and now I’m here.
Denial behind the smile
I still want you
with us.
Scatter thoughts,
nothings the same.
I feel changed.
Time will pass,
but I still think of you.
I think I can make it,
I just can’t let go.
It’s been four months,
and I still see your face.
Four months;
life changed.
Step Up 2
Me and my sis, Molly, just got done watching Step Up 2. It was amazing. We both think that it’s much better than the first Step Up. Step Up 2 has great music, great dancing, great characters, and Adam Sevani. What more could you want from a movie? So if you haven’t already watched it. Go watch it. Sooner rather than later.
Peace
Sam
Croquet and New Moon
A while ago, at my request, we got a croquet set. I thought it looked like fun, and wanted to try. So we got the set. We brought it out once right after we got it, and I enjoyed playing the game. So tonight, I begged my mom to come out in our backyard and play with me. So she did. After we had played two rounds, we went back in. (We each won a round, just to make it clear that I didn’t get beat badly.) I love doing things like that with my family. It’s fun just to spend some time together, even if we don’t talk about anything serious or try to solve the problems of the world. (which is naturally what you do whenever you get Starbucks, right?) I mean, sometimes my parents can be really embarrassing, but they’re parents, and that’s just what they do, right? They still can be fun to hang out with.
Another highlight of the day. Kaleb Nation (aka. Twilight Guy) has started New Moon. I’m really excited to see what he thinks of it, because I loved New Moon so much. (Although, Twilight is still my favorite from the series – so far.) And speaking of the Twilight saga, Stephenie (the author) has started giving us the Breaking Dawn quotes of the day. Every day from now until the book comes out, she gives us a new quote. Of course, some of them drive us (well, some of us fans..not all..) insane as we try to figure out what she means by that. I’m pretty sure that’s the purpose. =)
Peace
Sam
