Posting again…
So..I’m bored. Which means that I end up right here, writing more on my blog. =) I was looking at some of my old stuff I had written on my old blog, and then I realized I’ve been blogging for over a year now. It’s so strange, because when I first started blogging September of ‘07, I hardly thought I would make it to November of ‘07. It’s so weird to go back and look at things that were happening then, and to look at the type of poems and things I was writing then. Looking at poems I wrote just a few days before Kelly died, not knowing that my world was going to change in less than a week…poems written just a few weeks after, when my world was clouded with sorrow….It brings back a lot of memories. It’s so hard, remembering what it was like that night at the hospital. And it’s hard to keep going. And it’s hard to wake up, and then go back to bed at the end of the day. It’s hard to want to even be alive sometimes. And I now that probably sounds dramatic, but I mean, somedays it’s just like that. And I don’t know how anybody can manage to do it for a very long time, because I can’t even imagine it.
Random blog
What I’m doing right now…. Checking up on blogs and putting off the homework I should be doing right now.
What I’m listening to….. Starfield!!!
What I’m doing tonight…. More homework…..
What I’m looking forward to…. The Twilight movie in November and the Dorschel’s visit in December!
What’s today? Molly’s birthday!!!! Happy 17th sister!!!!!
This Moment
Trees of glass
and paper-cutted hearts,
wind whispers
and sharp splinters.
Breaking slowly,
shattered minds.
Never stop running,
faster and faster.
Don’t look back,
don’t look forward,
stare at bleeding feet
to numb the unknown.
Yelling breaks the silence
that never was,
now fight the tears
that always are.
Knowing nothing
and wondering everything,
life spins faster,
blurring at the edges.
Lost and searching,
running faster and faster
to a home
that never was
and never will be
within reach.
Wonderful, Beautiful, Washington
I left my parents at security on Tuesday afternoon, feeling very excited and a little nervous. What if I missed my plane? What if there was something wrong with my ticket? What if I had to sit next to some creeper on the plane? All of these thoughts were running through my head as I walked down the slope to gates 3&5. The waiting area was nearly empty, and I relaxed. I sat down next to a window and then took out a book. In my nervous-ness and excited-ness, I ended up going back to the gate about an hour early. When I finally boarded the plane, new worries came. What if I couldn’t find my seat? What if there was someone in my seat? What if something happened while we were flying? I would have no way to contact anyone. I found my seat and watched everyone else getting on, wondering who was going to sit next to me. No one. I was glad to have a little space. Take-off was amazing, and I enjoyed it a lot. We weren’t flying very long when we landed in Helena. And then they told us there was something wrong with the cock-pit and they had to call in a mechanic. So we waited, and waited, and waited some more. After an hour, we were all on the plane and ready to go. The rest of the flight went smoothly and then I was in Seattle. Then, I started worrying that I wouldn’t be able to find Travis in the busy airport. I found him easily and then we were on our way. Then all I could feel was excitement, and relief that I had gotten there okay.
My time here has been wonderful. It seems so natural to be in Seattle, and to be in Marcy’s house playing with my nephews, that it’s strange. It’s so natural, it makes it unnatural. Today me and Marcy took the boys down to U Village. After we were done shopping, for a minute I expected to go back to the Ronald McDonald House. And then I remembered, no, I don’t live there anymore. It’s strange to be so close to it, and not make the turn to go there. Even though I was born in Montana, and I love it, I feel like Seattle is so much my home. It feels so natural to go in to a huge city and walk around. I love it here. The time has gone so fast; I can’t believe I’m going home tomorrow! I have missed my family while I’ve been here, but like I said, this feels so much like home to me.
Please pray that the Seattle airport will be easy to navigate too, and that the flight will go smoothly tomorrow.
Peace
Sam
I’m Walking on Sunshine
So tonight is our first choir concert of the year, and this will actually be my first choir concert in well over a year. I think the last time I did a concert was the end of sixth grade, but it should go quick. The cougar choir (7th and 8th graders) are singing ‘Are You Going to Scarborough Fair’ ‘Joshua (Fit the Battle of Jericho)’ and ‘Walking on Sunshine’. I’m not sure what songs the high school choir and then the treble choir that Molly’s in are singing tonight, but I do know one of them is in French. =)
Tomorrow at around 2 in the afternoon, I will board my plane and leave for Washington. I’m very excited, but a little nervous to be flying alone. I’m sure it will go smoothly, but just say a quick prayer that nothing will happen.
peace
Sam
Update
My visit to see Marcy & family is just a little over a week away…
Tuesday is my last day of French….
Charlie shaved his head and Fred got his own website….
I became a fan of Sharon Creech’s books….
I now have a severe hatred for negative numbers because of last week’s math….
And I’ve been craving Starbucks for about 3 days now.
So, what’s been going on with everyone else? =)
Peace
Sam
