oh Kelly
how do you speak
what your heart feels
when your heart
has gone numb?
and how do you
look at the future
when you only
think of the past?
oh, Kelly,
my sweet sister,
you’ve left me
for the kingdom
in the clouds.
oh, Kelly,
do you breathe easy,
sweet sister?
home is not home,
happiness feels temporary.
and th sun dims
without your bright smile.
rain no longer
washes away sorrow,
but brings a melancholy song.
oh, Kelly,
my sweet sister,
you’ve left me
for the kingdom
in the clouds.
oh, Kelly,
do you dance on streets of gold,
sweet sister?
oh, Kelly,
my sweet sister,
will you sing with angels
and walk with our father?
will you smile
and dream sweet dreams?
oh, Kelly, oh, Kelly,
my sweet sister,
why were you
taken from this world?
oh, Kelly,
i love you
sweet sister.
A Change In Mood
So my blog has been rather depressing lately, I know. But I’ve been a bit blah lately too. So, now, I’m going to share a bit of exciting news. Well, exciting news to me, anyways.
So, the Twilight movie obviously did awesome, and they are definitely making New Moon into a movie. But, they were considering replacing the actor, Taylor Lautner, who played Jacob Black in the movie. They said he wouldn’t be able to fill the part as it is described in the books. That he wasn’t mature enough or whatever. So, today, the new director, Chris Weitz, announced that Taylor Lautner will be staying on to play Jacob Black. =)
Untitled
I thought deleting my last post, because I was just having a really depressing day, and I needed to vent. But then I thought, people should know that I’m not always okay, and that I’m tired of pretending that I am always okay. So I’m going to leave it up.
Lies
Kelly’s birthday is in exactly a week. The ninth.
I’ve been lying to myself for so long. Telling myself I was okay, I was healing, everything was fine. I told myself I’m happy. Pretended I was happy. And yet it was there, nibbling at my mind, and I ignored it by drowning myself with stupid things. I lied. I’m not healing. It’s as strong as ever, and I hate it. I hate everything about it. I hate this whole stupid world and all it’s lies.
Fall Out Boy
I’m listening to Fall Out Boy’s newest CD..and it is so far awesome. The perfect remedy for everything that’s been going on with me right now. Ah, sweet music. -sigh-
Good Morning Starshine
Watching, waiting,
estimating.
Rooms of silence,
tears of regret.
Memories I don’t want,
blocking everything else.
Sleepness nights melt
into worried days.
The stars, the stars,
they hang suspended in the night.
A call.
Tears on faces.
Outside,
I look.
One more star hangs in the sky.
Quick Update
So here’s what’s happening in my world right now.
Marcy and Travis were supposed to take a train back home tonight, but now they’re staying until Monday I believe. The weather here has been horrible.
Speaking of weather, right now it is 15 degrees below zero. It’s been snowing and just rather miserable.
We’re heading home now from visiting Marcy and Travis for a well-deserved rest.
Sam
NOW
The year comes to a close,
and I’m in a room alone.
I thought I was healed
but I find myself
breaking again tonight.
The world is celebrating
and my heart is breaking.
How many more times
will I be reminded
of that night?
How many more times
will my heart break
before it just stops?
