A Change In Mood
So my blog has been rather depressing lately, I know. But I’ve been a bit blah lately too. So, now, I’m going to share a bit of exciting news. Well, exciting news to me, anyways.
So, the Twilight movie obviously did awesome, and they are definitely making New Moon into a movie. But, they were considering replacing the actor, Taylor Lautner, who played Jacob Black in the movie. They said he wouldn’t be able to fill the part as it is described in the books. That he wasn’t mature enough or whatever. So, today, the new director, Chris Weitz, announced that Taylor Lautner will be staying on to play Jacob Black. =)
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I thought deleting my last post, because I was just having a really depressing day, and I needed to vent. But then I thought, people should know that I’m not always okay, and that I’m tired of pretending that I am always okay. So I’m going to leave it up.
Lies
Kelly’s birthday is in exactly a week. The ninth.
I’ve been lying to myself for so long. Telling myself I was okay, I was healing, everything was fine. I told myself I’m happy. Pretended I was happy. And yet it was there, nibbling at my mind, and I ignored it by drowning myself with stupid things. I lied. I’m not healing. It’s as strong as ever, and I hate it. I hate everything about it. I hate this whole stupid world and all it’s lies.
Fall Out Boy
I’m listening to Fall Out Boy’s newest CD..and it is so far awesome. The perfect remedy for everything that’s been going on with me right now. Ah, sweet music. -sigh-
Good Morning Starshine
Watching, waiting,
estimating.
Rooms of silence,
tears of regret.
Memories I don’t want,
blocking everything else.
Sleepness nights melt
into worried days.
The stars, the stars,
they hang suspended in the night.
A call.
Tears on faces.
Outside,
I look.
One more star hangs in the sky.
Quick Update
So here’s what’s happening in my world right now.
Marcy and Travis were supposed to take a train back home tonight, but now they’re staying until Monday I believe. The weather here has been horrible.
Speaking of weather, right now it is 15 degrees below zero. It’s been snowing and just rather miserable.
We’re heading home now from visiting Marcy and Travis for a well-deserved rest.
Sam
NOW
The year comes to a close,
and I’m in a room alone.
I thought I was healed
but I find myself
breaking again tonight.
The world is celebrating
and my heart is breaking.
How many more times
will I be reminded
of that night?
How many more times
will my heart break
before it just stops?
Question
One of the things I would like to do in 2009 is to finally put a collection of my poetry in to the world. I was thinking of using the cafepress site to publish it since it’s a relatively easy process. So my question for all of my readers is do you think it would sell?
Seasons
My words won’t come out right
but the pain
doesn’t cut deep tonight.
It seems I’m healing,
and who would have thought
that it would happen today.
At the time when it’s
supposed to hurt more,
why do I smile more?
I’m not forgetting,
because you’re still
in my thoughts.
But it’s moving
farther back in my mind,
and I don’t cry
like I used to.
So my heart
must be mending,
slowly stitching
itself together again.
And I find myself
thinking about it less and less
and starting anew.
I’ve still got a life to live,
and I don’t want
to live it
only remembering you.
I have to make new memories,
and new thoughts.
Meet new people,
and create a new life.
The end started
the beginning.
Christmastime
Trees with red and green lights,
children with excitement
in their eyes.
A kind word,
a small gift.
Christmas cookies
and candy canes.
It doesn’t take much
to make a smile.
It doesn’t have to
be in words,
but everything you do.
Christmas cheer
comes from
everything you say.
Every little thing
matters.
It comes in the form
of smiles, and hellos.
But this season,
everything seems to say
Merry Christmas.
